thats when I need it

I think that this is exactly right. I think we rarely do it. I think we need to do it. I think it would make the biggest difference. I know thats when I need it.

Patience in faith

Lately I have been thinking about patience in faith. There will always be times when it is easy to have faith, easy to be optimistic about an unfortunate circumstance, or seem effortless to see the potential. There are more times when it is difficult to see anything positive, or when it seems impossible to hope at all. I think we need to keep our faith constant and exercise our ability to choose that, during the more strenuous times alongside the easier times. When you are persistent in faith, there are good results every time. We are just too impatient to see that.

Belief

" In order to win that which is big, you must first win that which is small

Stay behind and get ahead. Detach and become. Let go of all and you will be full. Let go of all and you will be full... the good is like water that nourishes without trying.... in thinking keep to simple, in conflict be fair... don’t compare or compete simply be yourself

in order to win that which is great, you must first win that which is small"


I'm in love with these words . There is a power to them. Almost hard to explain with words because that is exactly what is so peaceful about it. I have always took great notice to how words can be put together so perfectly to create such power. Yet you can rearrange these same words to contain no magic at all. Those words touch the soul, and creates clear understanding of something so complex.

Rapture

We are so excited to share our perception of the world through pictures. The little things around us are enchanting. Its capturing joy and magic. It took us so long to choose a name. We wanted it to fit. We wanted it to be perfect.

down in the dumps

so what about those times we are down? 

the times we are hopeless 

when we can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

im trying to have faith. 

but faith hasn't made my stomach stop aching.

hasn't stopped my tears from flowing.

hasn't lightened the darkest nights.

but im holding on.

so in the midst of sadness, choose happiness. 

tell your aching its not welcome anymore. 

tell your tears that you need to save them for another time.

and chase those dark nights out with the light of hope.

most importantly hold on.

because one day, faith will ease your fight.

Sometimes people let you down, or you have an unfortunate circumstance come along that wasn't in your plan.  Sometimes you feel completely lost, like you'll never find your way back.  And maybe you don't even want to at that moment.   Time heals a lot. I used to hate hearing that when I was upset. Still do. But it doesn't change that it is true.   That leaves a gap between your circumstance and being all better.  Well the gap is there but what you do with it is entirely up to you.   You can choose. You're in charge.  Don't be held captive from your emotions.  Exercise your freedom, and CHOOSE. 

In a nice way

You can be honest in a nice way.

Say how you feel in a nice way.

Let someone know they hurt you; in a nice way.

Why do you feel the need to be right? Why do you feel the need to prove a point. Why do you feel the need to be blunt?

People are important. They need to be nurtured and cared for. Listened to and loved. Being right, or prideful should never be at the expense of another. Do you agree? Is being prideful , or proving your point worth making someone feel little even if in fact you are correct? And when you act as such, what does it say about yourself. Surely it reflects on you more than the person you just proved wrong. When you are okay with yourself, there is no need to put another down, to be right, or use sharp tones in any circumstance.

Times I have found the most clarity was amongst chaos.

Sometimes it's when you are so focused on searching for it that you don't find it. Clarity can be a state of mind. A series of thoughts that can produce peace, when and where ever you want.

You. Are. Loved.

Favorite Song of All Time.... Its the cure for anything. Im subscribing it to you.

Vulnerable

So I'm trying this new thing. It's called being vulnerable. For me this means working on not keeping people at a distance, not having to be perfect, trying even if I might fail, being able to connect. Your list might be different than mine. It might be the same. I still cringe at the word. My head zooms on auto pilot and connects vulnerability with weakness , which in turn is a direct link to BAD. Vulnerability may mean weak sometimes but weak most definitely doesn't mean bad. I think that's where we get it all mixed up. When you are vulnerable, Yes ,it opens you up to a lot more pain, and hurt and disappointment, (which you don't have to be attached to) But with that, brings in more joy, peace and fufillment from living an honest life.

Remember that... "No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough. It's going to bed at night thinking, Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid, but that doesn't change the truth that I am also brave and worthy of love and belonging".

The four agreements

Hi . It's been awhile. So let me make it up to you...

Read Slowly, read sincerely ... Now do that again

1. Be impeccable with your word .

Become aware of your thoughts. Become aware of the feelings that follow. Find out if your thoughts are reality. Be honest, even unto vulnerability. " the word is a force; it is the power you have to express and communicate, to think , and thereby to create the events in your life...your word can create te most beautiful dream, or destroy everything around you."

2. Don't take anything personally .

If someone you love insults you, if a stranger gossips about you, if someone intentionally harms you, intentionally hurts you , and any other situation of this nature...don't take it personally. What they say or do in reality has nothing to do with you. " when you make it a strong habit not to take anything personally , you avoid many upsets I your life. Your anger,jealousy , and envy will disappear, and even your sadness will simply disappear if you don't take things personally "


3. Don't make assumptions

We see the world as we are, not as it is. When we don't know, we assume. And then we defend our assumptions as if it were truth. Making assumptions can damper relationships, creates problems within ourselves, and in turn we suffer. "the way to keep yourself from making assumptions is to ask questions. Make sure communication is clear. If you don't understand, ask. " be cautious that you don't already have your assumptions or opinions set as you ask questions. Ask to understand not to place your opinion.

4. Always do your best

No more and no less than your best. When you do your best you are not lazy, but rather put to action the wisdom you know. Focus on tasks individually and choose to do your best each moment, each task, each experience. "Keep in mind that your best is never going to be the same from one moment to the next. Everything is alive and changing all the time, so your best will sometimes be high quality and other times it will not be as good."

No thought that enters your mind is REALITY. Nor should it be treated as such.

They are inaccurate.  Therefore the feelings you are feeling, are are coming from inaccurate thoughts. Lets make a change.

Who are you?

What do you think defines who you are?



"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."


You are not your mistakes. 

oh mirror in the sky what is love?

How do you love someone you have feelings of hate towards? 
How do you love someone who hates you?
How do you love someone you resent?
How do you love someone who wrongs you, who is unkind to you?


Well this one is simple but when I learned this, it meant a great deal.  It is one of those things we already think we know because it is simple and makes so much sense. 


Maybe you are struggling with feeling love towards others. Maybe just towards one person.


"My friend, love is a verb. Love-the feeling- is a fruit of the the verb. So love her. Serve her. Sacrifice. Listen to her. Empathize. Appreciate. Affirm her. "


Love as a verb, before Love as a feeling.

Not all who wander are lost

Its been said that, not all who wander are lost.


What is it about these times we wander?
Is it far from pleasing? Is it disheartening?
Many view wandering as a time that weighs down your soul which is the cause of loss of hope, &lessened dreams. The cause of empty eyes, vacant hearts, & lost love...

There is however this perception of wandering.  The times you bend down so you can jump higher.  The times when you fall, but in return gain necessary strength on your way back up. Its when something stabs you in the heart, but in time that same hurt, turns to wisdom.

Sometimes.. its in these times that we wander, that we discover. That we grow..
It can make the blurry become clear, and open our limited range of vision to limitless sight.

ForYourInformation..

Ever since I was very young I would write in my journal.

I found at a fairly young age that it was the best way to solve any problem.

I began to recognize my pattern of starting an entry with a question, a worry, or with something i didn't understand and end up with the answer or solution.

The mess in my head changed to clarity on paper.

All done pretty unconsciously.

I thought it was something that just worked for me.

But then I found this. 

"Just as breathing exercises help integrate body and mind, writing is a kind of psycho-neural muscular activity which helps bridge and integrate the conscious and subconscious minds. Writing distills, crystalizes and clarifies thought and helps break the whole into parts"

So Im thinkin it might work for you too. 

There isn't too many ways that you can "clarify thought" .

And most likely you don't know whats really goin on in there.

Chances are you can learn a lot from yourself.

Maybe YOU can solve some of your own problems.

In a world that persistently doubts, judges and demeans the possibility of our character through vacant eyes, we need to believe in people; not in what we see, but what we don't see

We are living in a world that doubts.

We are surrounded by a society that judges and demeans.

its like we lost our faith. 

not only in things, more importantly in people.

in our friends and our family and in those closest to us. 

everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt

we need to believe not in what we see.

but what we don't see; which is what they are capable of.

their potential.

see

Music. What would i do.

without music?

it says it all. 

it says everything we can't say.

its why we cling to it.

because its finally something that brings comfort with its understanding

 something that can express what you can't.

it can make you feel inspired, it can bring hope.

it helps us make sense of a world that doesn't. 

the times we fail,

then the lessons we learn from that failure.

the times we crawl,

and the lessons we learn from standing back up

the times we succeed,

and the lessons we learn from success 

when we smile,

then learn from happiness

the times we stand,

when we thought we could never get back up

the times we saw the light,

and the lessons we learned from holding on.

"all we need to know, is what we're going to know"

Its not confusing.

its plain and simple.

yet so complex.

we need to know the intelligence we are going to know.

the lessons we are going to learn 

&see through eyes that we are going to see through.

Journal, you are my only true friend. Out of everyone; I ran to you. You are loyal and constant and unwavering. I know I can always count on you. You are unjudgemental and patient. You listen and you make me feel better. You take my load upon you and off of me. I love you. 

Time is not.

In the moment, you feel like time is slow.

in hindsight, you don't know where it all went.

its like it vanished it the depths of oblivion.

oh how valuable our time is. 

 

Suppose there is a bank that credits your account each and every morning with $86,400.

Every evening it deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day.

What would you do?

Each of us has such a bank.

It's name is TIME.

Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.

To know the value of one year:

Ask a student who has failed a final exam

To know the value of one month:

Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby

To know the value of one week:Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To know the value of one hour:Ask someone who is waiting for news in an emergency room

To know the value of one minute:Ask a person who has missed their plane

To know the value of one-second:Ask a person who just missed an accident.

To know the value of one millisecond:Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the olympics

 

Time Is by Henry Van Dyke

Time is
Too Slow for those who Wait,
Too Swift for those who Fear,
Too Long for those who Grieve,
Too Short for those who Rejoice;
But for those who Love,
Time is not.

 

Every night it writes off, as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to good purpose.

It carries over no balance.

It allows no overdraft.

Each day it opens a new account for you.

Each night it burns the remains of the day.

If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours.

There is no going back.  There is no drawing against the "tomorrow."

                             It carries over no balance from day to day.

deep breath and here it goes

I have been wanting to do this for awhile.
I have had a blog for a long time now. But its available to my eyes only.
This one can be for more than just me. For some reason the idea still tugs on my vulnerable soul a little bit. I prefer to be a closed book. But why not share what I know. Maybe it can benefit someone or even myself. 
It took quite awhile to pick out a layout. I wanted it to match the writing.  Not too bright or happy because sometimes, maybe even most of the time; good writing is real and inspiring. serene and soft.  Thats how it hits me anyway.


deep breath; and here it goes.


Its the little things in life. In my opinion its your soul that holds hope, love... passion &peace.. Those important things &feelings. So to make your soul tingle, ... must be pretty important.
These things... are my idiosyncrasies. The things that make my soul smile.


going to my park to feel the perfect peace.
driving on an empty road on a dimmed night, with my music up loud.
walking into a gym.
sitting at the dinner table with my whole family with nobody in a rush to leave.
listening to him talk from his heart
WARM NIGHTS
me and chelsea's deep conversations
listening to church music with him
kissing in the rain
full rainbows
listening to music with megan not needing to say anything else but the lyrics to the songs.hanging out with daniel and larry
quotes.
when daddy is in his silly mood.
when mama is carefree.
MUSIC
when words are put together in a such a way they create feelingsreminding someone how important they are when they have forgotten.
when i see the intelligence of a young child
hannah montana
learning something POWERFUL
receiving letters.
CLARITY
looking at old pictures and videos
reading old journal entries.
the color gray.
david sigler's jokes
laughing with chelsea.
recognizing progress
maggie singing to me!
when someone goes out of their way to make a nice coment.
when someone believes in me
looking at the stars
being hyper with carley
insights from olivia
sincere conversations with parker.
feeling safe.
surety.
stepping on hot tar barefoot in summa time

feeling so passionate about random specific lines in a song.
READING something intelligent
recognizing WISDOM
learning things I LOVE ; LOVING the things I learn.









we need to remember to feed our soul. To make deposits to that very place we withdraw love, forgiveness, passion from.